My Idiotic Smiling Face

Have you seen those people on campus

when you walk to class?

People that look like this:

And then you wonder why they're smiling so much.

It's crazy.

They just walk around smiling at everybody.

Well, I was one of those people today.

I hope you didn't see me on campus.

If you did,

well I was really happy.

I think everyone noticed.
I was pretty much like this:

Minus pretty Brianna.
But that was my face.
Yea.
Good day.

My Favorite Poem

Sue me I'm in a romantic kinda mood.

And this poem applies to my life.

And I love this poem with my whole heart.

And I'm a romantic.

I said that already, didn't I?

If You Forget Me

Pablo Neruda

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

My Sticky Wickets--Best Week Ever!

This is a long post.

With tons of pictures.

Enjoy.

Wednesday,

I turned 22. Yes, 22.

It was my golden birthday.

And I had the best birthday party I could have ever asked for.

Everything was just perfect.

My wonderful roommate Bri made me a Snickers cake.

This is a really pretty roommate picture.

Jane and I are the coolest roommates ever.

Blowing 22 candles!

Bri said "picture" and Trent did this.

Bri and I. I love this girl. She's the sweetest.

Everybody decided to bend down so I wouldn't look so short.

Trent kinda took it way too far. lol.

Can't really get a decent picture with this guy.

We all went swimming after.

First time I look good after getting out of the pool.

Isn't she such a cute burrito?

Perfect day!

I love my roommates who made it all possible.

Thursday,

We'll skip it.

Thursday was a weird day.

Exciting for sure, but weird.

Friday,

I got to finally babysit again.

And I always get cute pictures when I'm with Jay.

He makes me look good. 

This is my favorite of all the ones we took.

He's like "What is this girl doing?"

He's so drooly.

I can't believe this is the baby I babysat when he was just a month old.

I taught him how to take pictures.

Isn't this picture precious?

We look so cute!

He's got the bluest eyes.

I want my own kid...

Jay in the jumperoo.

After playing and taking pictures, he's finally ready for bed.

Wait! One last picture!

Today--Saturday, 

Danielle came to visit me from West Jordan.

And she brought me this.

She made it!

Isn't it awesome?

I kinda don't wanna eat it.

It's so beautiful.

Also, yesterday I got a sweet new phone.

It's a touch screen but it has a keyboard and I love the keyboard.

Plus, it's purple.

I love it!

And today, I wrote a song.

To check it out, go here.

My New Blog

New Blog people!

Apt 12 has a blog!

Check it out! We'll be posting lots of fun stuff.

I love sharing this with my awesome roommates!
But don't you worry. I will still be keeping this one.

http://justthewayyouare12.blogspot.com

My Love List

I love...

...showering at night.

...braiding my hair.

...seeing the scale go down.

...recently shaved legs.
...books--except for the ones I have to read for school.

...Communicator.
...Netflix.
...boy talk with Jane and Brianna.
..."Animal" by Neon Trees.
..."Bullet" by Steel Train.
...driving with the windows rolled down and the music really loud.
...the Collaboration Team boys.
...my birthday.
...fictional characters.
...taking pictures.
...babies.
...looking at engagement pictures.
...life.


This is a really random picture but I liked how it turned out.

My "What I Always Like About You"

Family

Daddy always calls everyone "Juventud"

Mom always falls asleep while telling me a bedtime story.

Larissa always dresses like the coolest person around.

Toti is always in the mood for a movie.

 Roommates

Jane always puts on perfume before she goes to bed.

Bri always has a bag of chips in her cupboard.

Christine's way of putting eye makeup is always amazing.

Work

Spencer always says "Hi Team" when he comes to work.

Trent always sings along when we listen to music in my car.

Ben always has a bag with food.

Sam always has wallpapers of his baby.

Andrew always speaks Spanglish to me.

Eric always calls himself "Oso Blanco" when I say he's "Gummy Bear."

Good Friends

Britt always looks beautiful without any eye makeup.

Kyle always says the most random things.

Kim always says something smart.

Danielle is always in the mood for pizza.

Tanya is always worried about school.

Danae always likes the same music I like.

My ADHD Moment

I can't focus.

I should be paying attention to class but I can't.

I know I should try.

I'm just posting some pictures.

Just because I can.

Me, Jane and Bri

Jane, Bri and I

(Holy mackarel! I'm sooo brown!)

 Bri's friends, Bri, Jane and I

Jane's friend, Jane, Christine, Bri and I

This is an ADHD moment 

because I'm supposed to be paying attention to my class!

O well.

These are my goals for the semester.

(Baby steps people!)

- Write on my journal every night.

- Scripture study every day.

- Set aside at least an hour daily to work on my novel.

That's about it.

I should try to focus now.


UPDATE
(while not paying attention to another class)
Prof. Eastley, please meet him first

 
I love him! This is the second class I'm taking from him!
Anyhoo...
He has us reading "Midnight's Children"
Everybody is wondering about the title of the book,
because we still don't understand what's up.
When we were leaving he said:

"I know you all wanna know who the Midnight Children are.
Don't worry. They're coming."

Talk about creepy.
The book is not a horror.

But he made it sound like one.

My Bedtime Story

Meet Jane.

Meet Bri.

And don't forget about me.

We're roommates.
(Minus Christine, but you'll meet her)

And we actually do stuff together.

It makes me happy.

I wanted good roommates.

Jane and I went to the Dollar Theater.

We were planning on watching

"The Sorcerer's Apprentice"

but it was sold out.

So we ended up watching

"Charlie St. Cloud"

We were crying at the beginning of the movie.

Ridiculous!

But Zac Efron sure's a hottie.

Later, Jane wanted to go to a party at BYU.

So we went.

And found Bri.
She looked so adorable.
She's probably the most adorable girl ever.

We sure love Bri.

It was cool.

And now Bri and I are in reading moods.

She's reading Mockingjay.

I'll go read too.

I just wanted you to get to know two of my roommates.

This will be a good year.

My New Distraction

I have found myself a new love:

Netflix

Where were you all my life?

My Meditation On The Mind

"If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, 

the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world." 

C.S. Lewis

This is no secret. That I am sick in my mind.

Some disorders that I take meds for.

I like to think my mind was made for another world.

A better world.

And I'm just here passing by.

It's a pit-stop.

Kind of a long one.

I like to think my mind is powerful.

That I have these disorders because only I can take them all together.

God knows how strong I am.

How I can control my mind.

How I have the potential to destroy the ring*.

Not because I'm as innocent as a hobbit.

But because I'm as strong as a hobbit.

 And I believe the Lord, like Frodo believed Gandalf.

That they need to be destroyed?

Maybe not.

That I need them to grow and destroy my pride.

I believe so.

I am sick in my mind.

But it's like being sick in the stomach.

You take medication.

And live a normal life.

And honestly, ever since I got diagnosed,

I see the hand of the Lord in everything I do.

He cares for me.

He sends people to me.

He makes me happy.

And that's why I love him.

Even when he sends me the hardest trials.

(*) Reference to the Lord of the Rings.