From the Sidelines

Currently listening: Gold Mine Gutted by Bright Eyes

If you have ever stayed in the library until midnight, you know how they say that if you stay until midnight you will be accused of trespassing and you will be subject to criminal prosecution and crap. My friend and I were there the other day and we were leaving, we crossed the sensor thingies and the guard said "Wait, show me your BYU ID" and I was like "What?" and he said "I need your ID. You're trespassing now." I was honestly shocked. Trespassing? We were almost out of there. Four other kids came out after we did. I was so annoyed I wanted to cry. They made us fill out some cards with our ID numbers and they called the police department to report us, the trespassing incident will stay in our student records. I can honestly say I have experienced something I never thought I would experience. I mean, what the heck? The guard said it was just a warning for us not to repeat the incident. O trust me, it won't happen again.

I really cannot believe what a hypocrite I am. Pretending all the time. Even with myself. And when I find myself submerged in my thoughts, it is then that I know who I really am and what I really think. And it's one word. And then it's gone. And then I cry. Deeply. And then I have to get up. And try again. And cry again. The infinite loop.