Up, Up, Down and Roller Coaster

My birthday week was definitely a total blast. Who would have thought that this year would totally make up for the previous one? I hated my birthday last year because everyone forgot it.

UP. I woke up and the first thing I had was a text from my friend Michael that said "Wake up! It's your birthday." He's creative, I'll give him that. I also saw him randomly on campus. That was unexpected.

My friends Cristina, Gaytri and Stefani, and my sister gave me the whole Twilight series. Ok, almost, I just need to get the third book Eclipse to have my collection complete. I was excited. As you can probably tell.

My roommates gave me a new Wii controller and baked me a cake. I can't believe how nice they are. They just met me yet they care about me. I was really happy with my present. I will say once again, I love my little Danielle, Sarah and Aubrey.

That was Monday. The 22nd. My birthday was a magical day, no doubt.

Tuesday went alright. Nothing really big or exciting at all. Some finding outs to do, and more confusing stuff in my head, trying to switch from one mode to the other wasn't really working for me. That needed to be taken care of.

Wednesday was uneventful. Except for maybe, the fact that Michael, my little black Mac, was finally fixed. The wireless works now. Jared - Danielle's brother - fixed it. So now it works.

Thursday was very strange. I went from deciding I was in H mode, to understanding I was never going to figure out what mode I wanted to permanently be in. The first half of the day I was in H mode. And I thought that was it. But then I went over to changing my mode to the other the last half of the day. Mainly, the night. I watched The Office at apartment #107 (Michael, Tyler, Andrew and Seth's). I had fun. I am not really into The Office but maybe I'll get into it.

Mode decision: None decided.

UP. Friday was awesome! I had my birthday party. It was for me and Aubrey, because Aubrey's birthday was on Friday. I had tons of friends there and I had a lot of fun. My friends smashed eggs on my head. Remember your culture, Andrew (blue shirt, see picture) said. I could only smile. Because getting me to hold still took a miracle. Uno bueno. Would I change it if I could? No.
Mode decision: Still undecided. I had two things, two presents, two ways out and in. And I couldn't pick. Meh, not really necessary, right? I was just trying to keep the party at a low key with no hints of disaster or anything. No storm. Just a little rain. I can take some rain. No big deal.

I had a really nice time. I got everything I wanted. And everything I didn't want too. And I had my head somewhere else. And I needed time. And I needed to rest. And I did. And it didn't help. It got me dreaming. Weird dreams. Confusing dreams. Decision-making dreams. Not fun.

Saturday was a decisive day. Saturday, I really thought about stuff. Saturday, I needed to stop the switching modes. Saturday was the day Elliot finally put the cards on the table. And she chose J.D. No more switching for me. I am settled.

DOWN. My cellphone is broken. It freezes at start up. I need to change it. It's jacked up. I won't have a phone for 2 long weeks, plus the annoying fact that I have lost all my contacts, and the sad fact that I have lost all of my text messages, that is what hurts me the most. Great.

ROLLER COASTER. Sunday, which means today, was a little rough for me. I am finally sure of what I want but I think I have been brought down again. Because I cannot do anything about it. I get to think and then I think it's not like that. And then I get a gesture, and it's all messed up again. And then I get a hand, and then I don't know more. And I don't know where I should go. Or what I should do. And I think sometimes there might be a chance but maybe not. And a phrase is stuck in my head I can read you like a phone book. It's common knowledge. No, it's not! It was supposed to be my life. But after all I think I might have found a reliable and very important source though. It'll be a risk to take that path, but I will. And if things go wrong... well, I'll cross that bridge when I get to it.

Mode decision: key, permanently key.


P.S. Yes, those are eggs on my head. Darn you, Andrew.