Mixed Signals

Someone should have made the rules of life easier. It would save us so much time and so many sad moments.

I went to the BYU vs. UNM football game yesterday. The amazing thing is that I actually enjoyed it. Go figure. I thought football was retarded, but I had my school pride come out while I watched those guys play. It took me a while to figure out what was going on, but I think I got an idea of the purpose of the game. I did like it. Even though I thought we could have done a lot better. And New Mexico sucked so bad! BYU started on the wrong foot too, but hey, we won.


We are having roommate drama in our apartment. And I feel bad. I don't like it when there is tension where you live. And I don't want to lose the friend I thought I made. I am scared. I hope this situation fixes itself. I really don't want this to go bad. I don't think I could take anymore drama in my life.

We were at our apartment and Aubrey and Sarah said they had boy craving and they asked me to go with them to apartment 107. It was kind of weird a first. I am not used to go randomly to guys' apartments without an official invitation to go over there. Or at least letting them know we're coming over. So, I was a little shy at first. When we were there, Tyler kind of left and Andrew did too, Seth wasn't there and it was just we three and Michael. When Seth came back, he brought cookies his mom had made and Mike and Tyler went crazy about them and started to fight to get them. Tyler got the cookies at the end. (See picture) Those kids are crazy.

My roommates and I talked about getting dressed up for Halloween - which I have never done - and I got a little excited. They said I should be Pocahontas, I have the brown skin thing down already, plus my hair is black, even if it's not natural, - my natural hair color is dark brown - so that kind of fits, I suppose. This girl Lexi, said that I would need a John Smith if I wanted to be Pocahontas, so an American, blond guy with blue eyes? Not hard to get.

We had roommate bonding night after Ward Prayer, we three except for Danielle. I hope she's not too mad at me. I miss her happy crazy self. I hope things get better soon. Maybe I shouldn't have shared my opinion. Sometimes it's better to not say anything at all.

We watched Cinderella, starring some girl named Brandy who is probably the ugliest Cinderella I have ever seen - and it's not that I want to be mean, but she has really weird factions - And the prince looked Asian, the King and Queen were white and black, respectively, and they had an Asian kid? Yeah, right. It was good to spend time with my roommates though.

Scary, confusing, and wonderful. That is how things are right now. In general. And I have to do something about them, because if I don't, I'll regret it my whole life. I wish life were easier, but I feel like if I don't risk myself to get hurt, I will never know how things would have been. No risk, no satisfaction. I have been hurt before, I can take it. If it happened again, it'd be bad but I know I'd get over it. What I can't take is not knowing. I have waited long enough. I am ready to just try. So, get ready because after this is over, I might need a shoulder to cry on.

P.S. Yes, I eat soap bubbles. No joke at all.