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... in pictures.


Best Christmas since I came to the US!
Thanks Jane Jeppson!
You are the most awesome person ever!
My Christmas was great because of you!






So many presents I wanted to die!
Oh, and $100 from my parents.




Merry Christmas!

My Christmas Pictures

I know, I know.
It's technically not Christmas yet.
But I was playing around editing pictures today.
And I figured some holiday cheer and cute pictures wouldn't kill anybody.

Merry (early) Christmas!


I miss my roommates. 
They have been gone for a while now.
The apartment is very empty.



And I miss my boyfriend!
He went home to Oregon last night.
And I really miss him.
Besides, people at work asking me about him doesn't help my 
'trying to focus on something else.'

My Bridesmaids and Me

First things first.
Yes, it does say "bridesmaids"
And yes, Jane and Bri will be my bridesmaids.
But, no, I'm not getting married.
You can breathe now.

But I promised these two that they will be my bridesmaids when that happens.
And I just thought I would see how much fun we'll be having together.
We have a lot of fun already.
So this post is for two of my best friends.
I love you! Thanks for everything!

My Free Laughing Gas



WARNING
This post is for entertainment only. 
I understand some people might take it the wrong way.
It might be classified as racist.
Do NOT read if you get offended easily.
You have been warned.


We read Recitatif by Toni Morrison in my Eng 293 class.
The short story is about a black girl and a white girl.
Their names are Twyla and Roberta.
We never find out which one is which, though.
Morrison never tells us who the black girl or the white girl is.

Hutch--my professor--said that class today would be about prejudice.
And to participate we needed to do some prejudicing.
Some people in class were outraged.
I was laughing.
After all, I'm brown. I'm not racist.

Most of the class involved shouting out reasons 
why we thought Twyla or Roberta would be the white or black girl.

This is how the discussion on the board looked like.

Roberta

Reasons why she's black
- Eats fried chicken
- Likes Jimi Hendrix
- Her mom is fat
- Her mom wears a cross around her neck
- Roberta has smelly hair
- Roberta can't read
- She has an afro

Reasons why she's white
- She's rich
- She has a bigoted mother
- She's condescending towards Twyla
- Buys in the food emporium


Twyla

Reasons why she's white
- Her mom is a prostitute
- Accused of kicking black Maggie
- Refers to their differences as "race"
- Works as a waitress

Reasons why she's black
- When her child is bussed, she supports it
- Lived in the projects
- Twyla is the narrator, and Morrison was black


The point Morrison was making by omitting the races is that it doesn't matter who the white or the black girl is.
We assume because of our prejudice and, as Hutch said 
"The point is, who gives a flip? Morrison doesn't. And we shouldn't either."

There's a black girl in our class.
Her name is Honivah.
People were trying to be careful with what they said.
She was a good sport though.

Hutch: "Twyla's mom said that Roberta had smelly hair, then she has to be black, doesn't she?"
Honivah:"I wash my hair!" (laughing)
Hutch: "Nobody's doubting that, Honivah."

*

Hutch: "Because Twyla's mom dances all night, you all got that she's either a stripper or a prostitute, right?"
Class, but me: "Yeah"
Hutch: "Mom's a prostitute, she has to be white, right?"

*

Dougie: "On my mission all the black baptists always ate fried chicken."
Hutch: "So, Roberta's black because she eats chicken?"

*

(to the class)
Hutch: "Raise your hand if you have had KFC before."
Some people raised their hands. Including me.

Hutch: "Who's a prostitute?"

A white girl raised her hand.
That was kinda funny,

I learned a lot about prejudice.
I even learned I have my own prejudice.
I though Roberta was the black girl.
But then again, 
who gives a flip?

My Windo-Dre-Grad--what was I talking about?

My favorite place to procrastinate is a windowsill in the JKB.
I sit on the windowsill and look through the window.
I like people-watching.

Because I have ADHD the people-watching becomes a facade.
My mind starts wandering and going places I have not been to before.
It is dangerous.
But it can be kind of fun.

Last night, I had a dream that I was evil or something.
Because I stole a necklace and almost blamed it on someone else.
I didn't want to go to jail so I decided to kill myself.
I tried to drown myself.
I swear I could feel it in real life.

If I'm ever in a position where I might even remotely consider suicide--it won't be by drowning!


And this is long overdue, but...

Congratulations! Your application for April 2011 graduation has been reviewed and accepted by your Advisement Center. It is your responsibility to ensure all program requirements are completed by the appropriate deadlines in order for your degree to post to your transcript.

Graduation Services
B-150 ASB

Oh, yeah. 
I'm graduating from BYU!


By the way, early Christmas present for you,
A picture of my adorable self at the moment!


Yeah, I know I'm pretty when I want to.

My Sick Day (aka the boyfriend post)

I think I got food poisoning yesterday.
I was sick all night long and couldn't sleep at all.
I missed work and school because I was not feeling well.

I hate being sick.
But this time it's different.
Because Trent said he would baby me.

I'm so happy I have him.
I know this may sound cheesy and stuff,
but you have to count your blessings.
Right now the biggest one I have is Trent.

So if being sick means he'll take care of me...
I guess it could be worse.


Someone said this about him:
"He wants to take care of you in every way he can that would be catering to your every need! You certainly couldn't ask for a more loving kinder person who must think the world of you. You are a fortunate girl & trust you treat him with kindness on your end too as he seems like the type of person who would really appreciate it. He must be a "soft hearted" type person to use that kind of language. Count your blessings!"


I love having Trent as my boyfriend! 

My Sister's New Wallpaper

I emailed this picture to my sister Larissa.
She said she loved it so much she made it her wallpaper.
I think it's pretty adorable.


Aren't we totally cute?
Yeah, I thought so.

My Haves

I have...

A broken iPod.
Awesome roommates.
A great family.
A big heart.
Pretty great taste in music.
A crush on Shawn from Psych.
A broad imagination.
A habit of shaving my arms.
Great fashion sense.
Skills to do my make up.

And a boyfriend!!!!!!!

Yes, people, you heard it here first.
I officially have a boyfriend.
And I'm completely off the market.
And I'm pretty happy about it.

I have a boyfriend!!!
He's the cutest thing ever.
And he makes me smile every day.
November 27, 2010 people!
Te quiero mucho, penguin!


My Little Photo Shoot

Not to be self-centered or anything,
but sometimes I really think I'm pretty.


And it wouldn't be a Nadia post without my kissy face.


Meet Britt and Kyle.
I'm so grateful for their friendship.
They're the most adorable couple ever.




It was a really good day.
Thanks Britt and Kyle!
I love you!

My Penguin Spice




Hello, bloggers.
Look at your smile.
Now look at mine.
Now back at your smile.
Now back to mine.
Sadly, it's not like mine.
But if you stop beating around the bush,
and start going for it like me--it could be like mine.

Look at your boy.
Now look at mine.
Look down, back up.
Where are you?
You're in Provo.
With the girl with the smile your smile could be like.

What's in your hand?
Back at me.
I have it.
It's a phone with a text from a really cute boy.
Look again.
The text is now a picture of the boy.
Anything is possible
when you have a boy that makes you smile like I am right now.

I'm on a couch.
(Because I'm lazy)

A/N:
Compare to the Old Spice and New Spice BYU commercial.
I'm pretty witty.

Is December here already?


P.S.: I blank you, penguin! Which is why I miss you a lot right now!

My Redeemable November Weekend

I had the best weekend of the year.
 Thursday night, a group of friends and I went to The Gateway Theater
to see Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1.
The movie was AWESOME!
If you haven't seen it, GO NOW!
I'm so going again.

My dream finally came true.
I dressed up as my favorite Harry Potter character.


Okay, the real Ginny's way prettier but I tried.



I'm so happy I got to dress up for it.


I wanted a Dark Mark sooo bad, even though I was technically Harry's wife!
It looked so cool.


Dark Marks--and our smiley faces.


Then we went to the theater.
We had reserved seats so we didn't have to stand or wait in line at all.
It was pretty sweet.


See how cool those are?!


On Friday and Saturday I got to babysit Jameson.
It was so awesome.
He's the cutest little boy ever.




 




I think I had a pretty good weekend.
Wait, no. I had a pretty awesome weekend.

Harry Potter + Baby + Something Else = Very very very :)

My Laser Tag Face

I'm adorable.
Even when holding a gun, see?

Don't mess with Nadia.

My Best Friend's Birthday

It's Jane's 22nd Birthday!


Jane,

You are the most amazing person in the world.
I have only known you for about 2 months but you are one of my best friends.
It's probably kinda soon to say that but it's how I feel.
I love you a lot, Janie.
You have been a great friend to me.
You listen to me and you make me feel good about who I am.
You make me laugh and be a better person.
I couldn't have asked for a better roommate.
You're like a sister to me.
I meant it when I asked you to be my bridesmaid
--who knows who the husband will be but you're one of the bridesmaids--
You're one of my angels, Janer!!

This is what I wrote about you on my journal when I first met you.
"My actual roommate is Jane Jeppson, she’s a Nursing major from Salt Lake and she’s 21. Her birthday is on November 4th. She’s a sweetheart, I liked her from the very beginning. She is so open about everything and very upbeat about life, or so it seems to me. I like her a lot and I’m happy she’s my roommate. God looks out for me. He gave me Jane. We’re already very open, actually I tried to get out of my comfort zone so she’d like me. I like to believe we’re getting along well, because I really think we are. She’s the one that’s actually inspiring me to do many things I didn’t plan on doing, like reading my Scriptures and get better at journal writing. When someone is a good influence like that you just can’t let them go. You need to do what’s necessary to get along, and I really really like Jane. AND she looks like Kate Hudson (for real!)"

I love you, Jane Kennington Jeppson!



HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

My Future is Coming Up Fast

I don't know what I'm gonna do with my life.
I'm graduating in 5 months and I have no idea what will happen after.
I know I don't want to go back to Peru just yet.

I don't have too many options.
More school. 
Find a job.
How to find a job.
Did I pick the right major?
Too late now if I didn't.

I don't know what to do.
All I know is I'm not ready to go home.

My Letter to A Friend Vol.1 Iss.2

Thursdays are going to be letters-to-friends (LTF) days.
This one goes for a wonderful friend that understands me very well.
A friend that I know I can talk to.
A friend that makes me laugh.
A friend that makes me feel like I'm important.

Dear Friend,

Thanks for being ready to text me back. Thanks for always giving me nice comments and for making me feel that I have made a difference in your life. I haven't known you for too long but I'm so grateful for you. You were definitely an answer to my prayers. I feel so at ease when I talk to you and I feel like I can tell you anything. You are so beautiful and so like me that whenever I see you I can't help but wonder how I was so lucky to become one of your friends. Thanks for being such an amazing friend and for making me feel like I'm also a blessing in your life. Sometimes I just need to feel there's someone in the world who cares about me--someone who likes me and someone who will value me for who I am and not for who I can't be. If I try extra hard to not show how messed up I am inside is because I want to be someone you want to have around you. I guess what I want to say is thanks for being you.

Love,
Nadia

My Best Short Story

I'm really proud of this story.
I wrote it about a year ago but I just revised it and made it more understandable.
It's long so I'm attaching the link to go to the document.

WARNING 
It's deep and it could be disturbing to some people.

Consider yourself warned.
Feel free to give me feedback.
I would actually appreciate it a lot.
A LOT. A LOT.

My Countdown

I got my Harry Potter tickets on Tuesday.
I'm going to the midnight showing at the Gateway.
I know, all the way to Salt Lake.
But it will be so worth it because the theater is awwwesooome.

Can't wait!

My Letter to A Friend Vol.1 Iss.1

This is a new thing I'm trying.
I'm writing a letter to a specific person each week.
Today that person is someone who listened to me
and saw me crying and made me smile.

Dear Friend,

Thanks for today. I was a mess. I don't know how you were able to look at me and stay there with me attacking you and being so defensive. Having you there was reassuring, especially because I was expecting you to leave and run for your life. People tend to do that. I hope you know I have stopped testing you, you don't need to be tested. You have done enough already to show me you are a good friend and I appreciate you for it (English doesn't help very much. I guess I want to say "te quiero por eso"). I know I said I wished I had "not come back" two years ago. But now that I think about it, maybe there was a reason for me to still be here. Maybe I needed to meet you. We haven't been friends for too long but I feel like I've known you forever. I don't know if I'm any good or if I've done anything to help you or anything big like you have, but I really do care about you. Thanks for being so patient with me and for not running away. That's all I can say. Thank you making me smile, I kinda like it when I do. Thanks for telling me I'm cute even though I don't believe it. Thanks for being a great friend. I guess what I want to say is thanks for being you.

Love,
Nadia

See? I'm smiling.
Plus I totally did well on my midterm.

My English Essay that got an A

I was scared when I took this midterm and I decided to relate my essay to my life.
It was a risky choice.
But I like taking risks.
We just got the Midterms back today.
And I got an A.
And I think it's worth publishing on the blog.


English 380 Midterm Essay
Given Topic: Friendship

My therapist told me that in order to be a normal balanced person you need to have a support system. I always believed I could do everything on my own and that I didn't need anyone to hold my hand because that was a sign of weakness. I grew up isolating myself from everyone because I thought it was safer to be alone, to not worry about anyone betraying you and to be one with yourself. I always thought I had a good life and that friends and support systems were for losers who couldn't handle themselves and their problems. There was no power or importance of friendship in my life and I could have written a whole paper against Orson Scott Card and Ursula LeGuin's ideas.

Comparing this to what we've read I can say I was in the position of Mr. Biswas, surrounded by people without really trusting anyone, following his own ideals and trying to fulfill his dream of having a house without the help and support of his wife Shama, who only knew to complain, and his kids who were too scared to talk to him. Mr. Biswas didn't let that bother him, he kept going with his plan of building his house. The beginning of Mr. Biswas doesn't show that human unity is at all important, Mr. Biswas seems to be doing okay, his plans are working and he's finding ways of building his house whether Shama approves of it or not.

After some time I was diagnosed with depression and I started taking medication for it. I couldn't stop thinking I was crazy, I felt like I was an insane person and decided to even isolate myself more than before. I didn't need to go crying to anyone about my problems, I didn't even talk about it to my professors at school and that usually meant I would miss class for long periods of time and I never had an excuse so my grades were low.

In this specific situation I compare myself to Saleem in Midnight's Children. After his dad hits him for hearing voices in his head--for having something that made him different from others--he decides to keep his "gift" to himself and to cope on his own, to try to get on with his life controlling what was going on without anyone by his side. Saleem didn't need another human being until he meets the Midnight's Children but even then, he didn't trust the children, he didn't consider them friends at all. They were all a team, somewhat like classmates, or people that go to the same ward. There was something that they all had in common but it wasn't big enough to make them friends.

Life goes wrong when you least expect it, and when one thing is not working out, it is very possible that other aspects of life will also start to bring us trouble. After a while of coping on my own with the newly found depression, some situations in my life brought me to believe there was no way out and I overdosed. My family was not with me. I didn't have any close friends. I didn't even have a therapist. I don't think I've ever been that close to death and I don't think I've ever been that scared in my life. I heard voices--like Mr. Biswas and Saleem--and my vision went blurry, I thought I was gone. Fortunately, I didn't die and I had been scared enough to start looking for help outside of myself. I confessed that I had a problem to a guy named Brian who I worked with and who became my friend. Things happened and we ended up having irreconcilable differences and each of us went their own way and stopped being friends.

This part of the story is similar to Hector and Achille in Omeros. Even though it's not very clear in the poem, it is possible to imagine that they were friends before Helen appeared in their lives. They were both fishermen and liked traveling in their canoes and go places. When Helen appears into their lives, she is more important to them than their friendship or any bond they had with each other. She becomes the reason their unity becomes disunity to the point that they fight with each other and go their separate ways. In Hector's funeral, Achille laments losing his friends and if he could I think he wouldn't let Helen come between them. Both Hector and Achille had very unfulfilled lives even though one of them had Helen.

Even though Brian and I ended up like Hector and Achille, I had learned my lesson, just like Achille did. I started to build my support system and I stopped being so self-conscious about my depression. I started going to a therapist and I started making friends. To have human unity, truth is necessary, one cannot build a friendship based on lies. The people one considers friends need to know the most important things about you so they are prepared to help you if you ever need help. It is always frightening to confess to people that there are things that are different about you that they probably don't know about. Sometimes they'll turn their backs on you--like Gollum when he killed his friend for the Ring--and sometimes they will be there for you, whether you want them to or not--like Frodo and Sam.

Frodo and Sam in Return of the King are the most pure example of friendship there can be, the most realistic one and the one Scott Card and LeGuin were referring to. The friendship might start slow, like Saleem and Padma. Saleem didn't trust Padma very much at the beginning and he didn't give her enough credit, which ended up pushing her away. Because of the love she had for him, whether or not it was romantic, she comes back. I like to think that if Saleem hadn't died, Padma would have helped him become a balanced person in social settings. Frodo and Sam knew enough about each other, Frodo even tried to keep the ring for himself and got mad at Sam many times. Sam responded like a true friend would "I can't carry it for you, but I can carry you." Friends can't carry our burdens for us, burdens are not a ring that hangs from our necks and that we can pass around if it gets too heavy, but friends can lift us up if we ever need help from people. Everyone needs a support system, everyone needs people around.

Colonialism is very against friendship and human relationships. Colonialism was all about conquering and exerting dominance over a weaker nation, which caused many ruptures in human relationships and trust in your fellow men. I believe all the English authors and the international authors of the time were focusing on friendship and on support systems. They wanted to express that the way to succeed in any aspect of life is not by controlling other people: it's by leaning on other people, because that is the only way you can find home in a far away place, may it be Mordor, or Provo, UT.


My Don't Read. Seriously Don't Read.

You ignore warnings?
Right now I wish I had never ever met you!

My Cheesy Wish

I like drawing.
One thing that I've always wanted to draw,
but I've never been able to is this:


Can anything be more reassuring than someone holding someone else's hand?
I wish one day I can draw a pair of holding hands.
Because they fill me with a feeling of tenderness.


Sigh.

My Next Weekend

For all you nay-sayers,
specially one person named Nadia
--that would be me--
I have news.

I have a date on Saturday!
Yes, believe it people.
Nadia Reategui has a date.
With a cute guy named Mykel.

But--since I suck at first dates
We'll see how it goes.
Ben told me I just need to be myself.
"No guy is too cute for you." He said.

Aww, Benny Bear.
This is Benny Bear. Meet him.



My Heartfelt Post

I always say God sends me hard trials.
He makes me go through really crappy stuff.
Because He knows I can take it.
But what I forget to say sometimes,
is that I wouldn't do it without people.

I usually push them away.
I usually isolate myself because I find it safer to be alone.
But I've gone through some sticky wickets lately.
Some really crappy stuff.

And I wouldn't have done it without these people.

Spencer
"If I were a girl or actually related to you, I would give you a hug." 
The brother I never had but always wanted.
He's a very important part of my support system.
If I couldn't talk to him,
if he didn't listen to me...
He listens. He cares.
He makes me laugh.
Sometimes that's all you need.


Brianna
"You can cry all you want. I'll be home and you can cry on my shoulder."
She's like a little sister to me.
She likes watching movies.
Ice cream.
Girl talk.
And texting.
I know I can always text her about anything.
I know she'll reply. I trust her.
Sometimes you really just need someone to hold you while you cry.


Jane
"We're not putting up with you. We're just being here for you."
I wanted a good roommate.
I had an awesome year being roommates with Britt 
but I had an awful summer roommate experience.
I wanted more than a roommate.
I wanted a friend--like Britt.
And God sent Jane to me.
She's the female version of Spencer, kinda.
She always makes me laugh.
She's so sweet and so spiritual.
Always makes me feel loved.
Sometimes you just need someone to tell you you're worth it.


Christine
 I am sad Christine is usually at work when I'm at home.
But she's a great roommate.
She's so direct and so spot on.
Sometimes you just need someone to side with you.
Whatever happens.
And she has the most honest smile ever.
Sometimes you just need to see a friendly smile.

And last but not least.
This Scripture was comforting.

Alma 31:31
"O Lord, my heart is exceedingly sorrowful; wilt thou comfort my soul in Christ. O Lord, wilt thou grant unto me that I may have strength, that I may suffer with patience these afflictions which shall come upon me, because of the iniquity of this people" 

God is always there.
Whatever happens.
Just let Him help you.

My Question

Why are we even able to dream?

My New Pets, Conference and the Quote Board

Jane's grandma sent me a little present.
Jane thought I wouldn't like it.
But I love it!

Meet our new pets:
Ravens!
Aren't they legit?!
Severus and Sirius.
Jane and I named them, we're that cool.



Some pretty pictures:

This is a really cute Nadia ready to go to Conference.


These are cute Nadia and Bri having fun with the camera.





Shoe Shot for sure!


Conference Center! Yay!


Oh, please check these out.
Jane and I are the funniest roommates EVER.
We're so random, we were just meant to share a room.

Please LOL with us.

Jane: "My grandma gave me this. But I'm always worried about the stuff that she gives me..."

Nadia: "I liked the talk on addiction. I might be addicted to Facebook."
Jane: "I think sometimes I'm addicted to sugar."

Nadia: "Christine and Bri are better with boys but our room has more funny quotes."
Jane: "'Cause we're weird! That's why boys don't like us!"

Jane: "Nadia, why are we weird?"
Nadia: "I don't know..."
Jane: "No! We need to repent!"

Nadia: "You talk in your sleep!"
Jane: "You do too! I bet we have like a party while we sleep and we're like 'Hey! Pass the salsa!'"

Jane: "I'm telepathetic!"

Jane: "Booty Call!"

Jane: "OMG! I smell sooo good!"

Nadia: Ward Choir is social suicide!"

Bri: "I look like a burrito."
Nadia: "I wanna look like a burrito. No. An enchilada. No. A taco!!"

Nadia: "My song is so sad someone has to sing it!"

Bri: "What happened to the chicken?"
Nadia: "It's not broken."

Jane: "Nadia, there's a hole in your pants."
Nadia: "Isn't it cute, though?"

Nadia: "I like my hole."
Jane: "Do you realize what that just sounded like?"
Nadia: "After I said it."

Nadia: "My roommate is naked! Just kidding..."
Jane: "My roommate is a nut!"
Nadia: "You are too! Don't give me that crap!"

Nadia: "I like you without a bra."

Nadia: "I wanna make out with a boy in a dream."
Jane: "I wanna make out with a boy in real life."