My Love-Struck Story: October 2009

FYI

If you want to be friends with someone, you should be able to accept them for who they are. I'm not an expressive kind of person at all, so I'm sorry if I hurt anyone along the way just because they're used to a different kind of friend.

If you want me to hug you every day, I probably won't do it unless you ask me to. If you want to come somewhere with me, tell me. I'm not the kind of person that asks everybody to go with them everywhere. I can't read minds, if someone wants something from me they have to tell me, I will not come up with it any other way.

What can I say? I'm dense, like a guy... even if I dress like a girl now.

There. Explained.

There

My roommate got her wedding dress yesterday. The apt was full of aww's and ahh's. Crazy. Good crazy. Britt looks so excited, it just makes us all feel happy for her. Besides, she and Kyle look adorable together.

As for my boy problems, they're done with. I haven't really felt anything for anyone since last year. I've tried to but it just doesn't feel right. Not like it did last year.

As for school, I'm doing well. Finally feel that my life is going the right way.

As for church, I have an interview with the bishop tonight so everything that's making me feel like such a failure inside I will finally be able to get it off of my chest. Bishop's in for a looooong conversation.

He's not you

I heard Karma say one day that she had gotten to the point that when she walked on campus and saw a cute guy, she didn't think "O, he's hot" anymore but she only thought "He's not (insert name of current huge crush here)". I'm not sure if I'm glad to say this but I'm in that same situation right now and I'm in shock...

Frustration

So there's this guy. Yes, there's always a guy. I don't know why I even befriend them. I know I don't really want to because getting in trouble is not something I enjoy.

My friends say he likes me, I don't think so. But if he did, I guess I could like him too. But he will never know because he'll never try a thing. Believe me.

According to me, if a guy likes you, he'll try to pursue you, not by being mysterious and confusing. Honestly, I've gone through that already and I don't recommend it. Guys, if you like a girl, just go for it! Mystery was never fun.

That's my advice.